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I have to admit that I easily fallen for sweet talkers. Beautiful words, Sweet promises, Blinded by Stupid Love. And after all that break up, im still goin strong. I have a True heart, I believe in One Love One. I put on my 101% in loving a person but at the same time I also expect something in return. May not be the equal amount as I give but enough to keep me happy and satisfied and for sure that our relationship will still going strong just like the first day we know each other. It may sound too much but it as simple as A B C. Nothing is impossible it’s up to individual. I’ve been an understanding person. Compromising and of course communication play a big part in delivering a good relationship.

It’s a complete Lie if a person doesn’t take looks as one of the expectation. Yes I do but doesn’t mean I don’t look at a person heart. As for me A Heart will win over Looks once I found my true love. After sometime you will not bother how he/she looks like because it doesn’t matter to you already because a heart is the one who won over your heart. This is not "Love is Blind". This is True Love.

As for sure I don’t like Liars, Pretender and False Hopers if you’re one of them. Do stay away its impossible for me to accept u.

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Im BaCK LETTING MY heART OuT! In mY Post tOday I wanna write lots of stuffs which relate to differ people. So IF U think that particular post is about U, Good. Dont ask me Cause feel it with your heart.

1) You still Haven Changed after what U did to me, Now U wanna do it to others. Your promises, oh please i dont want to start talking about it, its like a fairytale. What do U get for hurting others. Wake Up Look around U, how many people u have hurt. Karma is following you now. Better stop & Hope u find yr true happiness.

2)I been checking your daily comments. I could feel it & i know its about me. But its not time yet if u know what i mean. theres so much things i got to do & relationship is not an easy things. if we are meant to me, we will be. Hope u understand my situation

3)I been thinking about it lately & its okay if u reject it. i always been a understanding person. i dont want to sound so desprate. Im happy if ur happy. Nice knowing you.

4)You make me feel so special, i really adore u. Theres something about u that i really cannot leave u. I feel like im already attached to u but somehow i couldnt feel your heart. Are you hiding? Or is it me?. Sorry i still cant give my 100%. til then...

5)Its just the begining? i wont put hopes but i smile when im with you. you make me blushed. But still we are friends.

6) I thought i could look out to you & share my daily stuffs. like mens stuffs. But Your attitude still haven changed. I really dissapointed in you. You dont care about our feeling.

There are 6 posts & 6 people involved. Follow your heart whichever post it lead u to.

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HELLO!! its been Long Long TIme i didnt update my precious Blog! I miss Bloging so much.

Im DOin' Just FIne. Pretty Busy. Breathing again! Hmm where should i begin!

For those who were shocked to see my latest post on FB, showin your concern by replyin and smses me. I really appreciate it. Basically its about this NIGHTMARE that i dream that make me sat down and cry so emotionally. Everything felt so real. i couldnt breathe. speechless. terrified. I dreamnt that when i wake up theres no one around. The One that i love left me, my family ignore me. my friends hate me. I was there alone by myself in the dark. I was blame for everything.

What if one day things happen for real just like in my dream. Who will be there for me. Im not used to this. I know its all just a bad dream. But whenever i keep thinking about it, my mind... haiz making me weak plus im not yet recovery from my cough. No appetite. Im weak inside. I need the strength to carry on.

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Its Tuesday, Seriously I just Wake Up 1 hr Ago. which is 3pm. tell me about it. Okay Im very Tired!Friend message me to hang out at Tamp. But Sorry Guys i have tuiton at 7pm. Next Time okay. Dont get angry (smile) will catch up wit u all pretty SOON.

Okay its Gonna rain anytime soon. I hate it when it rains cause my mood will change. I think its PMS ha ha ha.

Yester night was so emotional cus i cried so Emotionally THINKIN' what if i have to leave the world earlier. What will happen to the one i love. But at least I dont have to watch them Leave first, cause i cant let them Go. They are everything to me.

Okay Gonna Wash up now shall update more later aite. mean while tc

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Hello.. Okay its Been like Weeks i didnt Update my precious Blog! Im just to Lazy! But Now i wanna start back blogging... I miss Blogging so So SO MUCH!

Okay Finally I turn 22! A big Number here hahaha! Gonna Get used to it. Dont worry im still the Good kid.

Its Beeen a Great 2 months plus Holiday.. & THis Thurs School Resume back. I miss School (maybe) yea 1 year Left! Im so Gonna Put it to the strike. I wanna do well. I want to make my Family Proud. have a Great Future. A Promised i made to myself before entering POly.

Im Happy with my life now. its getting better each day. Therez no need to cry over a tear , Cause i guess this is life a journey a person will undergo. Whether its a hard or easy road, we still have to face with a well prepared mind set. And i wont regret the past cause without it i will not be standing here looking Stronger, Wiser & Better. I just wanna say Thank U. Life still have to Move On. I believe!

What i need now is Morale Support from Family & Friends. The Best Gift Ever received.

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I think the recent Drama really wake me up from the fantasy land, and I really grateful that now I know what is good & bad. And it really opened up my eyes & mind. God really love me because he let me have a little taste of it and ask to learn from my mistake. And I really did now.

Now I can see myself smiling again. And I really happy seriously. I always think that being in relationship will make myself happy but when I look now NO it’s totally rubbish. Staying single and having your family and friends by yourself is more than enough to occupied your loneliness. What important is focusing on the future. There’s more awaiting for me.
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I’m still Young and don’t need to rush thing over.'

PS: Don’t come near me if your intention is to play my heart & Leave me apart.

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For the whole 22 Years in my Life, I never get the taste what is “so called real love is”. Never been so deeply in love and love a person so heartedly even though been in a relationship before. Cause I always afraid to fall in love because I’m scared of losing it if anything happen. But getting to know you change the whole situation. I’m not scared and it’s like I found my happiness. It’s hard for me to give up or do anything for someone which I called love. But knowing you, I Give my all without thinking twice because I thought you are the one.

I know it’s too early, and I understand. I also don’t want to rush things ahead. Because we just know each other. Everything is like so first...
Now I’m really confused and really a fool to myself. I guess for all this while I’m just like nobody and a substitute for a period of time. I feel so stupid like seriously so so stupid. That’s what I get for being kind hearted all my life. I easily get carried away with all this sweet words and I still haven learnt my lesson. But until now.

I know it takes two hands to clap but doesn’t mean clapping together shows its sincerity. Don’t have to return someone love if you know you can’t delivery it. Don’t have to give hope when it will only hurt that person more. Im not angry because you didn’t choose me, because that’s your choice and I truly respected it but it’s because of you playing with my feeling.
I wanna Thanks to my friends who have given their care and concern, I should have listened early. But what is done cannot undo. Now I have learnt my lesson. Totally lost and phobia. And I wish I didn’t know you before. And sorry if I don’t pick or reply any of your messages because right now I just want to relax my mind and forget everything.

I don’t blame anyone I only blame only myself for everything that happen. I just don’t understanding why people love hurting me so much, what did I do wrong until I have to suffer and be punished like this. Is it wrong for me to fall in love?

Now What I’m going to do is put my mind off this. I’m going to focus on my future & studies. Will not step into another love story in the near future or until I found someone who really treasure me and love me 100%. Love can wait for sure.
What I wrote here is not because of anger but this is what my heart & mind felt...
What I need now are my friends. (Full Stop)

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I never felt this way for a long time, and soon after you came into my life
Everything changed. All my sadness had been erase away, lost in the outer space.
Knowing you is the best thing that happens in my life and I really mean it. I love you not because of your Looks, because it is not that important to me but it was your care & concern, the love you shower me. Make me feel so secure. Each day my love grew bigger & bigger for you. I feel that I have found someone that really understands me and I really trust you.
I gave you my all.

I don’t know what you feel about me now. I never had any intention to hurt your feeling or make you feel sad. Because if I do I will be breaking my heart too. I just want to see your happy face, hear your cheerful voice like the first day I know you. I don’t want that to fade away.

Sometime I feel like I’m not good enough for you. I know where I stand. And I know I may not be as lovely as yr Ex(s).
And I feel like I’m the one who should be blame for everything.

Now I’m in the state of complication, I feel like everything just lost.
How can I bring that love back again?

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OK NEW STATUS! ALL THE POST THAT I WROTE IN THE PAST ABOUT ALL THE EMO STUFFS. just TAKE it as OLD ENTERTAINMENT! BEcause When i think Back! i dont need to be SAD! THIS is LIFE! UP & DOWN = LIFE! I FOUND MY HAPPINESS! & i wanna be HAPPY!. lets be & Stay HAPPY PEOPLE! K!

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Topic 1 (Caught in the middle)

Hmmm i dont want to be sad anymore, cause i wanna fight this weakness in me. So tell me what would you do, if 1 like u then suddenly 1 dissappear and suddenly you get to know 2 and suddenly 3 & 4 came & what worse is that 1 appear back in your life. Seriously for me im Blur totally.

Topic 2 (Special power)

Okay recently i got this kinda SIX SENSE going on! and it turn out to be true. its weird, scary but im okay with it. Example: Whenever something gonna happen i get this feeling that someone or soemthing is coming towards me. And theres this particular time when i was in toilet doing small business, and heard open door that someone is entering. What so weird is that, theres this partiular name (with is my friend from other class) appear in my mind and when i open that cubicle i was shocked to find out its HIM! ha ha. and theres also other things which i couldnt say here.


to be continued...

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I’m still in my confusion state of mind until this game is settled I will be alright & life will be back as per normal.
I feel like... I don’t know how to explain but its killing me inside. No mood to eat, everything that I do is just not right. Can anyone tell me what does this mean?I feel so hopeless. I don’t know what to do.
Or does imaginary play my mind. It’s not true right! Everything that has been troubling my mind? Tell me that it’s not true so I don’t have to make believe.
If it’s true why does it has to make me suffer like this.
Only you have the answer. Only you could tell me. But I know it won’t happen.
Maybe I took it too seriously and Maybe there’s nothing going on. It could be possible reason.
Rudy please don’t take anything nice as your weakness, You got to be strong Rudy, You are a nice person.

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