OMG just reach home two hours ago from B Boy Dance Practice. N class lasted 4 hours , full of tiredness but it was super duper fun i tell you. So in love with Break dancing now. Ohya the class was conducted by Larry. from Natasha Studio Crew, i guess haha. Wateva but hes Fantastic i tell you. Very Discipline. i LIOKE!!. Tomorrow another class but its Hip Hop class. all about shaking your butt and waist which im so Good at it. hahahaha action. But i think ok confirm tomorow morning my whole body gonna ache like hell. Ok i need a good massager. ANYone out there willing to massage me? hehehe.

hi people im back; do you miss me?. sorrie for not updating been pretty busy this week.

Okay today i wanna express my deepest love feeling, the important of love in my life.

As i grew older im thinking what makes me able to stand on both feets and live the everyday life. Well everybody knows that life is full of surprises and beyond imagination. There's always something new you will face each day. But did you know that everything you do will either you do it for yourself or someone. The love in you has always be by your side and the love from people around you are the one that kept you alive.

That is what i feel!

Love plays a big part in my life. I easily attracted to love. what i meant is the love, care and concern which i get from the people i love. Once the Love has been build then came the trust!

Because of trust, the love that has been build for years can be broken if you neglected it.

As for me Once i know a person and able to adapt , i will put hopes and trust. Because im that person who really like to meet and make new friends. Share the love around.

OMG Its Monday and School just begun. I hate it VERY much okay. Sunday was fun until 9 plus at night. stressing up what to wear to school. Took out all the shoes, pants, jackets arhhhh...and finally finally hhaha i got it.

Will update later okie. back to focusing lesson. . .

Its suppose to be Holy Friday But I wake up damn late at 2.30pm after Friday Prayer. Was Shocked. haha!! Recieved a lots of SMS(s). Stuck at home today. Watching "Jangan Tegur" ( BE SILENT) A Malay Horror Story MUST WATCH!! haha just go Youtube. Tomorrow Goin out probably & Hopefully! Watch Movie & Dinner asusual, The Rich & Famous Lifestyle hahah Wateva Rudy.

Thats all for today a short one!!

IM BACK for More!

First of all i would like to say A BIG thank U to those who have SMSs me, Thru MSN or TagBox for the care & concern you all have given me . I know my previous blog entry was like "O M G r u serious Thats Rudy" Cannot Be!!! he's such a 24 7 Crazy Wild Innocent and dont forget the Virgin person"

Well people that is LIFE. Love it or Love it Moore! I think im acting dumb, too emotional. get carried away by emotion too far til i dont know who i am anymore. But i realize it now. Aite okay I got lots to share with you Guys. N I miss RDN so much.. see U guys dis Saturday hor. MUCH MUCH love! awww

Be back guys daily for hot storiesss

As im writing this, im holding my tears real hard. I hate for being Me, Myself and I. I feel so lifeless. I want to GEt out from this world! Do i have the money face look! Nobody knows me. Im all alone here in this world. I can't accept when people tell me im just good for nothing, only think for myself. I feel so heartbroken. im 21, still schooling, not working. i feel so much presure. Im just useless, really useless. I don't know who am i doing all this for? myself or others. im confused. I been Straggling all my life, living with hope & fear. im so scared. has anyone ask me why am i so happy, crazy, sad or quiet? For all this while all the problem i had, i been keeping it inside my heart. There's no point telling others. what will i get another scolding? discouragement?. there's a point of time i couldnt take it anymore. i cried out loud. for hours til my eyes swollen. Because i want it to go away. No one knows how pain it was to feel the sorrow. Is Dance a SIN? Can i choose what i wanna do in life? Do they care?.

"All Eye On Me In the Center OF The Ring JusT Like A Circus" -- Do U know what does that sentence mean? Fame, Glamour, SpotLight!? NO NOT FOR ME!It mean: people are looking at me like some stupid clown, wasting my time, making a fool of myself.Booing ME, Say Nasty things. Where i standing there, doing nothing because i dont know who i am! where am i!

That's why I prefer to be alone, the smile & laughter on my face. Do u think im perfectly fine? I just don't want people to worry about me! BEcause im not worth it. (Full Stop)

5 years ago was the up & down moments for me.

Its all started with an unexpected love story which both parties did not realize.

My first so called First Love. It was pure & innocent. Simple & lovely. The happiest moment that point of time in my life. Each day was like heaven.. wanting more & more. So madly in love. Smilling to the four walls. Enjoying replying SMSs. but one think we never talk on the phone. (weird). Yes its true. The time we spend together was never enough but after each meeting was so memorable. This is not a fairytale.

Soon after, the time we spend together became lesser & lesser. Reason i was not focusing & giving attention to love. and it was on a day we met but it turn out to be the last day. Seriously i wasn't thinking anything, my mind when blank. freeze frozen dead. But soon i realize my life is missing, miss those SMS, waiting patiently, trying to start back all over again. Lost contact! for years. When searching on internet to track back information, any details i could possibly get. Crying was never the end! Talking to the moon. Skip about the HEartPain!! and Hoping was always my first soul. Took me a long time until i give up searching. Been fighting wit dis heart for years, to forget to delete and erase. N its a good success just for a while ONLY. but i don't know suddenly a flash back rush through my mind and make me numb! Now after 5 years i manage to find back thanx to ".............................."! we all still back in contact as a friend. No more! cause after 5 years departing, there's changes that we possibly cant change back. Because human grow and always wanting the best for themselve. so do I!

There's a reason why i dont want to accept another love. because i dont want to involve my past story and make a mess when im attached, accepting someone heart.

This story is to let off what has been keeping in my mind, heart and soul for all this while and thanx to "...................." for letting me write this down and i appreciate it very much.

But i guess.. soon i want to fall in love again!