As im writing this, im holding my tears real hard. I hate for being Me, Myself and I. I feel so lifeless. I want to GEt out from this world! Do i have the money face look! Nobody knows me. Im all alone here in this world. I can't accept when people tell me im just good for nothing, only think for myself. I feel so heartbroken. im 21, still schooling, not working. i feel so much presure. Im just useless, really useless. I don't know who am i doing all this for? myself or others. im confused. I been Straggling all my life, living with hope & fear. im so scared. has anyone ask me why am i so happy, crazy, sad or quiet? For all this while all the problem i had, i been keeping it inside my heart. There's no point telling others. what will i get another scolding? discouragement?. there's a point of time i couldnt take it anymore. i cried out loud. for hours til my eyes swollen. Because i want it to go away. No one knows how pain it was to feel the sorrow. Is Dance a SIN? Can i choose what i wanna do in life? Do they care?.

"All Eye On Me In the Center OF The Ring JusT Like A Circus" -- Do U know what does that sentence mean? Fame, Glamour, SpotLight!? NO NOT FOR ME!It mean: people are looking at me like some stupid clown, wasting my time, making a fool of myself.Booing ME, Say Nasty things. Where i standing there, doing nothing because i dont know who i am! where am i!

That's why I prefer to be alone, the smile & laughter on my face. Do u think im perfectly fine? I just don't want people to worry about me! BEcause im not worth it. (Full Stop)