Rudy& Sudyono

Finale - Part 2 of 3

2011-02-20T03:01:00.005+08:00

LOVE EXPECTATION

2010-07-15T01:13:00.002+08:00

I have to admit that I easily fallen for sweet talkers. Beautiful words, Sweet promises, Blinded by Stupid Love. And after all that break up, im still goin strong. I have a True heart, I believe in One Love One. I put on my 101% in loving a person but at the same time I also expect something in return. May not be the equal amount as I give but enough to keep me happy and satisfied and for sure that our relationship will still going strong just like the first day we know each other. It may sound too much but it as simple as A B C. Nothing is impossible it’s up to individual. I’ve been an understanding person. Compromising and of course communication play a big part in delivering a good relationship.

It’s a complete Lie if a person doesn’t take looks as one of the expectation. Yes I do but doesn’t mean I don’t look at a person heart. As for me A Heart will win over Looks once I found my true love. After sometime you will not bother how he/she looks like because it doesn’t matter to you already because a heart is the one who won over your heart. This is not "Love is Blind". This is True Love.

As for sure I don’t like Liars, Pretender and False Hopers if you’re one of them. Do stay away its impossible for me to accept u.

JUST FEEL IT!

2010-07-06T21:03:00.004+08:00

Im BaCK LETTING MY heART OuT! In mY Post tOday I wanna write lots of stuffs which relate to differ people. So IF U think that particular post is about U, Good. Dont ask me Cause feel it with your heart.

1) You still Haven Changed after what U did to me, Now U wanna do it to others. Your promises, oh please i dont want to start talking about it, its like a fairytale. What do U get for hurting others. Wake Up Look around U, how many people u have hurt. Karma is following you now. Better stop & Hope u find yr true happiness.

2)I been checking your daily comments. I could feel it & i know its about me. But its not time yet if u know what i mean. theres so much things i got to do & relationship is not an easy things. if we are meant to me, we will be. Hope u understand my situation

3)I been thinking about it lately & its okay if u reject it. i always been a understanding person. i dont want to sound so desprate. Im happy if ur happy. Nice knowing you.

4)You make me feel so special, i really adore u. Theres something about u that i really cannot leave u. I feel like im already attached to u but somehow i couldnt feel your heart. Are you hiding? Or is it me?. Sorry i still cant give my 100%. til then...

5)Its just the begining? i wont put hopes but i smile when im with you. you make me blushed. But still we are friends.

6) I thought i could look out to you & share my daily stuffs. like mens stuffs. But Your attitude still haven changed. I really dissapointed in you. You dont care about our feeling.

There are 6 posts & 6 people involved. Follow your heart whichever post it lead u to.

STRIPPED for 2010??

2010-06-24T15:49:00.003+08:00

NUMBER 100

2010-06-13T18:43:00.002+08:00

im BAck & Feeling WeaK

2010-06-13T01:30:00.000+08:00

HELLO!! its been Long Long TIme i didnt update my precious Blog! I miss Bloging so much.

Im DOin' Just FIne. Pretty Busy. Breathing again! Hmm where should i begin!

For those who were shocked to see my latest post on FB, showin your concern by replyin and smses me. I really appreciate it. Basically its about this NIGHTMARE that i dream that make me sat down and cry so emotionally. Everything felt so real. i couldnt breathe. speechless. terrified. I dreamnt that when i wake up theres no one around. The One that i love left me, my family ignore me. my friends hate me. I was there alone by myself in the dark. I was blame for everything.

What if one day things happen for real just like in my dream. Who will be there for me. Im not used to this. I know its all just a bad dream. But whenever i keep thinking about it, my mind... haiz making me weak plus im not yet recovery from my cough. No appetite. Im weak inside. I need the strength to carry on.

MY TUESDAY MOOD

2010-04-13T16:05:00.001+08:00

Its Tuesday, Seriously I just Wake Up 1 hr Ago. which is 3pm. tell me about it. Okay Im very Tired!Friend message me to hang out at Tamp. But Sorry Guys i have tuiton at 7pm. Next Time okay. Dont get angry (smile) will catch up wit u all pretty SOON.

Okay its Gonna rain anytime soon. I hate it when it rains cause my mood will change. I think its PMS ha ha ha.

Yester night was so emotional cus i cried so Emotionally THINKIN' what if i have to leave the world earlier. What will happen to the one i love. But at least I dont have to watch them Leave first, cause i cant let them Go. They are everything to me.

Okay Gonna Wash up now shall update more later aite. mean while tc

A BIG SMILE

2010-04-12T23:00:00.000+08:00

Hello.. Okay its Been like Weeks i didnt Update my precious Blog! Im just to Lazy! But Now i wanna start back blogging... I miss Blogging so So SO MUCH!

Okay Finally I turn 22! A big Number here hahaha! Gonna Get used to it. Dont worry im still the Good kid.

Its Beeen a Great 2 months plus Holiday.. & THis Thurs School Resume back. I miss School (maybe) yea 1 year Left! Im so Gonna Put it to the strike. I wanna do well. I want to make my Family Proud. have a Great Future. A Promised i made to myself before entering POly.

Im Happy with my life now. its getting better each day. Therez no need to cry over a tear , Cause i guess this is life a journey a person will undergo. Whether its a hard or easy road, we still have to face with a well prepared mind set. And i wont regret the past cause without it i will not be standing here looking Stronger, Wiser & Better. I just wanna say Thank U. Life still have to Move On. I believe!

What i need now is Morale Support from Family & Friends. The Best Gift Ever received.

The Speaking Bitches: Dirty Rhym

2010-03-06T01:49:00.004+08:00

THE SUDDEN AWAKENED

2010-03-02T18:31:00.000+08:00

I think the recent Drama really wake me up from the fantasy land, and I really grateful that now I know what is good & bad. And it really opened up my eyes & mind. God really love me because he let me have a little taste of it and ask to learn from my mistake. And I really did now.

Now I can see myself smiling again. And I really happy seriously. I always think that being in relationship will make myself happy but when I look now NO it’s totally rubbish. Staying single and having your family and friends by yourself is more than enough to occupied your loneliness. What important is focusing on the future. There’s more awaiting for me.
'
I’m still Young and don’t need to rush thing over.'

PS: Don’t come near me if your intention is to play my heart & Leave me apart.

LETTING GO ALL MY FEELING

2010-02-23T00:43:00.000+08:00

For the whole 22 Years in my Life, I never get the taste what is “so called real love is”. Never been so deeply in love and love a person so heartedly even though been in a relationship before. Cause I always afraid to fall in love because I’m scared of losing it if anything happen. But getting to know you change the whole situation. I’m not scared and it’s like I found my happiness. It’s hard for me to give up or do anything for someone which I called love. But knowing you, I Give my all without thinking twice because I thought you are the one.

I know it’s too early, and I understand. I also don’t want to rush things ahead. Because we just know each other. Everything is like so first...
Now I’m really confused and really a fool to myself. I guess for all this while I’m just like nobody and a substitute for a period of time. I feel so stupid like seriously so so stupid. That’s what I get for being kind hearted all my life. I easily get carried away with all this sweet words and I still haven learnt my lesson. But until now.

I know it takes two hands to clap but doesn’t mean clapping together shows its sincerity. Don’t have to return someone love if you know you can’t delivery it. Don’t have to give hope when it will only hurt that person more. Im not angry because you didn’t choose me, because that’s your choice and I truly respected it but it’s because of you playing with my feeling.
I wanna Thanks to my friends who have given their care and concern, I should have listened early. But what is done cannot undo. Now I have learnt my lesson. Totally lost and phobia. And I wish I didn’t know you before. And sorry if I don’t pick or reply any of your messages because right now I just want to relax my mind and forget everything.

I don’t blame anyone I only blame only myself for everything that happen. I just don’t understanding why people love hurting me so much, what did I do wrong until I have to suffer and be punished like this. Is it wrong for me to fall in love?

Now What I’m going to do is put my mind off this. I’m going to focus on my future & studies. Will not step into another love story in the near future or until I found someone who really treasure me and love me 100%. Love can wait for sure.
What I wrote here is not because of anger but this is what my heart & mind felt...
What I need now are my friends. (Full Stop)

STATE OF COMPLICATION

2010-02-13T17:26:00.000+08:00

I never felt this way for a long time, and soon after you came into my life
Everything changed. All my sadness had been erase away, lost in the outer space.
Knowing you is the best thing that happens in my life and I really mean it. I love you not because of your Looks, because it is not that important to me but it was your care & concern, the love you shower me. Make me feel so secure. Each day my love grew bigger & bigger for you. I feel that I have found someone that really understands me and I really trust you.
I gave you my all.

I don’t know what you feel about me now. I never had any intention to hurt your feeling or make you feel sad. Because if I do I will be breaking my heart too. I just want to see your happy face, hear your cheerful voice like the first day I know you. I don’t want that to fade away.

Sometime I feel like I’m not good enough for you. I know where I stand. And I know I may not be as lovely as yr Ex(s).
And I feel like I’m the one who should be blame for everything.

Now I’m in the state of complication, I feel like everything just lost.
How can I bring that love back again?

HAPPINESS!

2010-02-07T02:08:00.003+08:00

OK NEW STATUS! ALL THE POST THAT I WROTE IN THE PAST ABOUT ALL THE EMO STUFFS. just TAKE it as OLD ENTERTAINMENT! BEcause When i think Back! i dont need to be SAD! THIS is LIFE! UP & DOWN = LIFE! I FOUND MY HAPPINESS! & i wanna be HAPPY!. lets be & Stay HAPPY PEOPLE! K!

Chapter of Summary

2010-02-05T09:48:00.007+08:00

Topic 1 (Caught in the middle)

Hmmm i dont want to be sad anymore, cause i wanna fight this weakness in me. So tell me what would you do, if 1 like u then suddenly 1 dissappear and suddenly you get to know 2 and suddenly 3 & 4 came & what worse is that 1 appear back in your life. Seriously for me im Blur totally.

Topic 2 (Special power)

Okay recently i got this kinda SIX SENSE going on! and it turn out to be true. its weird, scary but im okay with it. Example: Whenever something gonna happen i get this feeling that someone or soemthing is coming towards me. And theres this particular time when i was in toilet doing small business, and heard open door that someone is entering. What so weird is that, theres this partiular name (with is my friend from other class) appear in my mind and when i open that cubicle i was shocked to find out its HIM! ha ha. and theres also other things which i couldnt say here.

to be continued...

STATE OF CONFUSION

2010-02-03T19:44:00.003+08:00

I’m still in my confusion state of mind until this game is settled I will be alright & life will be back as per normal.
I feel like... I don’t know how to explain but its killing me inside. No mood to eat, everything that I do is just not right. Can anyone tell me what does this mean?I feel so hopeless. I don’t know what to do.
Or does imaginary play my mind. It’s not true right! Everything that has been troubling my mind? Tell me that it’s not true so I don’t have to make believe.
If it’s true why does it has to make me suffer like this.
Only you have the answer. Only you could tell me. But I know it won’t happen.
Maybe I took it too seriously and Maybe there’s nothing going on. It could be possible reason.
Rudy please don’t take anything nice as your weakness, You got to be strong Rudy, You are a nice person.

3

2010-02-02T15:14:00.002+08:00

3 days to End everything. I already know the answer to it, but I keep on giving myself the feel of happiness. Im addicted, im injected, im blinded, im living the sin life. Because I still don’t get what I want and I won’t let it run me mad. I don’t want to get hurt. Cause its making me look silly. I don’t want the incident 4 years ago to happen again. It was the most tragic moment at that time. I was lost I was all alone. But time passes by and I begin to accept the fact. And I think we are Cool now.
I want to delete the past & Start all over again from the start.

CARE & CONCERN

2010-01-28T21:27:00.007+08:00

Hie peeps. How are You? feeling fine & healthy? cool keep it up. Dont let anything control or stop you from goin' through. Its from the heart not the mind. So what i been up to? Well im much happier now, everybody been asking about am i attached? r u attach Rudy? With Who? A Girl or A Guy? Questions over Questions. But i said nothing & smile.

Well Question over Question Answer here I answer. I'm not in any relationship or dating anyone. I been single for nearly 3 years now. And within these years , it has taught me alot about love & war. I been hearing stories from my friends about their relationship, love life story. Break Up - MAke up thats so the basic step when it come to RS! Arguement, Figthing, 3rd party, Unfaithful and etc. I Guess what make this relationship not strong enuf is all relies on the heart of the person.

How to work things up?
How to Solve problem when it arise?

WHat a Human need is CARE & CONCERN people! We need attention & motivation from our love ones to carry out our daily routine. A simple message is enough to boast up our day. If U dont CARE why at the first place be in a relationship because your friends in a RS also? Dont push yourself if you're not ready. Give Yourself TIME & Dont rush on LOVE! Show your CARE & CONCERN, TRUST & how much you really mean to him/her then start thingS one at a time. Dont need to WORRY about "if i DONT get you i will lose you" cause at the end of the day if that person is meant for you it will be meant for you.

IM STRONG

2010-01-27T18:20:00.004+08:00

I wrote a new song title "Im Strong" its about fighting with your anger management & your past. Basically its about Love & War!

SongWriter: Rudy Sudyono
Song: Im Strong

Verse 1
I Lick the Gun
When im done
Feeling lost
But i aint feeling guilty
You better run
'Cause i wont entertain
Everything that you please me

Every fucker dont need respect
Hope for a Plan and a second chance
There's open door and it says
Pack your bag and its time to leave me

Chorus
Im ready to go
Put the past all behind me
Im ready to show
all the anger inside me

But now im strong
(for my own life)
You wont be able to pull me down
(I pull you down)
Til the rest of your day you'll still down
(I shoot you down)
Down
Down

Verse 2
I say my pray
Close my eyes
Hoping all, everything would leave me
You gotta stop coming back
Cause i wont be waiting to greet pig

Every bloody words that you said to me
All the fucking lie that i had believe
There's open door and it says
Pack your bag and its time to leave me

Chorusx2

I lick your gun
When you lost
Cause it seem
to be the ending

F O

2010-01-25T14:20:00.001+08:00

I DONT GIVE A SHIT ABOUT U ANYMORE!

PROMISE

2010-01-23T01:22:00.003+08:00

Writer/Singer: Rudy Sudyono
Song: Promise

Verse 1

I wont disturb your life
a promise i made to myself
I wont break your relationship
a trouble im getting away
But you have to promise me
that im not your used to be boyfriend

Chorus

'cause you leave me for his own hand
and i truly respected it
even though the pain still hurt me much

Don't you worry about me
DOn't you regret the decision you have made
'cause he's the one you love and
Don't ever neglected his love

Verse 2

I won't be sad
a promise i made to myself
I will delete our photos
'cause it will bring back memories
But you promise me not to hurt his feeling
'cause i believe he's the one for you
and i could see that.

Chorus*

Bridge

We could be friends (i be your bestfriend)
We can till meet up (with him by your side)
I promise to be happy and
I know i will (dont you worry)

Chorus*

I MISS U, U MISS ME?

2010-01-21T18:45:00.005+08:00

I HATE YOUR SILENT

2010-01-20T20:21:00.004+08:00

I HATE YOUR SILENT!
I HATE YOUR ATTITUDE!
I HATE YOUR HEART!
I HATE YOUR PHOTOS!
I HATE YOUR BULLSHIT!
I HATE YOUR WORDS!
I HATE YOUR LIES!
I HATE YOUR PRETENDS!
I HATE YOUR KINDNESS!
I HATE YOUR TRUENESS!
I HATE YOUR SINCERITY!
I HATE YOUR SMILE!
I HATE YOUR MESSAGES!
I HATE YOUR SILENT!
I HATE YOUR SILENT!
I HATE YOUR SILENT!
I HATE YOUR SILENT!
I HATE YOUR SILENT!

Love Rudy

2010-01-17T00:59:00.003+08:00

Truth About Myself

2010-01-16T17:58:00.007+08:00

Name: Sudyono Bin Salleh
Family name: Rudy

Im half Indonesian
Born: April 04 1988 (Singapore)
Sibling: 3rd out of 5
Currently Staying: Hougang Ave 1
Status: Single for 3 years (tell me about it)

What i like: Love Dancing, Love Simple yet memorable things. I love Fashion, Love Dressing Up.
WHat i dont like: Unfaithful things, Liars, Heart pain

DO i Smoke/Drink?: I dont Smoke!, Drink Occasionally only during certain events.

What people think about me: Well I got lots of negative comments about me! they are confused of my sexuality. Haha Tell me about it! Well Only my closes Friends/Best friends knows me better who i am. Why i care about people says, do i own them a living. Keep on gossiping til they're tired of it! im Fine & Cool!

I can be very Crazy, Out of Control person. But im a very loving, caring and understanding person. Im shy by nature so dont say im arrogant, "action" im just dont know how to start that's all.

Love cheering up & making a person happy and that will also make me feel happy too.
And Ofcus I accept a person for who they are!

U want it

2010-01-14T21:02:00.006+08:00

Writer/Singer: Rudy
Song: U Want it

Chorus
I be your boy tonight
Is that’s what u like
I follow your instruction
Not gonna turn back
I make u feel right
Is that’s what u like
There’s no need to talk
I do what you like
I do it

Verse 1
You see
I feel
The touch of my indulgence
I kiss your lips
Is not the way i touch it
I strip my undies off me
Do it
Like we never do it before

Bridge
Cause I want u put your hands on
Is that’s alright is that’s okay
Cause I want u make me feel right
Is that’s alright is that’s okay

Chorus*
I feel it
U feel it
I... I...want it.
I...I... bet you want it

Verse 2
Now don’t you stop
It’s time to get intimate
Turn on the lights
And see what u've been doing
But now don’t touch me
Cause i want to make you feel like
we were dancing
cause you are my baby

Bridge*

Chorus*

THANKS GOD I FOUND U

2010-01-12T19:52:00.005+08:00

So this is how it feel after the storm is over. Heartache and Pain. I couldnt control my emotion yesterday night. It was a silent night with a mix of everything. THis is the cause of a fragile heart!

I guess after those tears drop i felt much better and i have to say its a way i get away from emotion and able me to breathe once again.

THANKS to those around me who have light up my life every day! The smile on their faces really makes me so happy and i really thankful to have them.

Sebagai Teman (Just a Friend)

2010-01-10T19:50:00.005+08:00

Hi Peepz! Muak haha Ok im insane! How U doing On this Lovely Sunday??! Time fly fast huh! what to do ! TOmorrow resume back to hell i guess. Ok Sunday like the same evry week! TOday wake up early like 945am! Usually i would wake up 12 or 1pm. Maybe my body is fully charged!

No one at home just my maid and myself! the rest went JB!, out to town! Mum didnt cook today~! just ate keropok. wanted to fried rice! but hate to dirty the kitchen!

Did revision for Monday UT! and all the way Face Booking, Youtubing!

Ok i love this malay song Sang by Malaysian & Indonesian Divas: Siti Nurhaliza & Krisdayanti!

Its from their new Duet album! I love all the songs! especially this song: i been keep repeating it song for over 4 hours !!.

She Knows Better

2010-01-10T00:39:00.009+08:00

Writer: Rudy

Song: She knows better

Verse 1

Im standing here

Watching you walk out of the door

Im screaming here

as im slamming out that glass door

You dont have to run

if u're on the right side

and i dont need no explanation

cause you have lost your chance

Chorus

You dont even know my heart

(but she knows better)

You dont even hold me tight

(but she does it better)

You know even say my name

(but she never stop)

when you walk out that door

that very same night

Verse2

I losing my trust

on a one night stand

Cause i do love you

when you walk out of my sight

But you drive me mad

pushes me beyond my imaginary side

Now im caught between damage and lies

guess i should have control my emotional mind.

Chorus*

Bridge

I dont love her

But i still kiss her

She open her heart

But i turn it down

I should'v never play with her feeling

But you force me and i cant denied

she knows me better than you ever know

Chorus* x2

NOW UR GONE!

2010-01-05T08:32:00.006+08:00

Writer: Rudy Sudyono
Song: Now Ur Gone

Verse 1
Another love game

Another fight

Im sick and tired of your lies

Should have never trust you from the start (oh no)

You said that im the one who'd change

Behind me you are playing flame

So why must im the one who get the blame

Chorus

Oh oh Now you're gone

There's nothing else i want

Stop begging over

There's nothing left to hold

Look what you have done

Your negelcting my heart

Now its gone

Nothing left for you to stay now

Verse 2

Another call

same everyday

I pick it up with a silent tone

So tell me what 's there for you to say to me

I putting all my trust on you

So this is what i get from you

Just tell me what i am suppose to do

To leave you is what i have to do

Chorus* x2

WELCOMING 2010

2010-01-02T12:00:00.003+08:00

Its 2010 a brand new year to celebrate! I Guess it’s Gonna be a same year again! A better or worse year maybe. I don’t want be another year of crying! Cause I’m tired of it! I’m serious

Is it true the more rich you are the more an idiot u will be. I don’t know~! I guess people will not realize it! And what made me more sad if u yourself don’t have a feel of sympathy for others! It just will hurt me much! It’s hard to be me. People think I used money to enjoy and spend it like nobody business, but they don’t know me I use it to buy my own happiness. Sometime I have to make myself feel happy so I will not feel sad! What I am Sad about? Humans around me! I don’t know who I live for! But I know I belong to me. I have a fragile heart, and it can be easily broken with just a simple mean word. This blog is my only open diary. It’s a heart to heart sharing.

But overall I’m happy with my life.

Ps: Save me from the dark, grant my wish so I could smile again without faking it.

KUALA LUMPUR

2009-12-23T17:46:00.003+08:00

Tomorrow i will be on my way to KL! its like every year kinda Holiday! The plan for this year would be trip to SABAH!! but no flight!! shingz! so here we go again! KL will be staying at Concorde HoteL! Im like so Excited NOW!! i love the shopping there!! Especially at "Sungai Wang"! its like Crazy mall!! Evrything u want is there! Party at HardRock? Maybe! Cuz normally when i am overseas i dont party! its kinda wasted!! i go there to relax my mind and pampared myself!!

To those who gonna miss me! U r like always on my Mind!& heart! Sweet ryte me!! hehe there i told ya! Im a loving person okie!

EVrything is packed! Ohya almost forget My hair Straightener! A MUST TO BRING!! lol

Oh I see You PPL! on sunday again! we chat chat ! k Miss & Love from me!

70TH

2009-12-21T01:36:00.004+08:00

Hi today is my 70th post! Lets! celebrate hehe! Woo hoo! New Year is coming so Exciting! Goin Holiday this THursday very Excited! Just EXCITED! lol

Okay like suddenly i dont know what else to type and share! its completely BLANK!

kk i will update again aite!

TIRED but im LOVING it

2009-12-18T21:21:00.006+08:00

Ooh What a Week One after One activities,Outing! making me dead tired! but since its holiday i dont mind! Enjoying the season! Okay today wake up early again at 8am. My lil' brother and I wen to CITY HALL! yea went there for Breakfast at KFC!! cool huh!
No actually the purpose of goin there is to go to Suntec convention Hall cause theres Sale Sale Sale on Electronic stuff. There's a BIG promotion for items like fans, rice cooker, iron and etc which sold at $5-$10 ONLY! But in order to purchase this stuffs u need to cut out the coupons from the Malay Newspaper! haha. We reach City hall at 10am and proceed first with breakfast then on to Suntec City! My thought is it will not be many people! But i have shocked the miniute i reach there OMG! people are Queing at shit!! !I dont even know where's the Q start and End! So i called my MUM and say I GIVE UP!And she ask me to Q up early in the morning tomorrow! ERHMM NO WAY HELL LOL! so Kiasu hor! haha. its 1115am and still early so when to HMV & Penisula Plaza for a little shopping! Cant believe im like in suntec just for this promotion sale! LOL

YEA TOMORROW!! AVATAR 3D @ VIVO!! im loving it

BACk with a Smile on my face

2009-12-15T01:11:00.003+08:00

Its Monday and i can finally feel the holidays again! Went out with my lil' brother and nephew we watch Movie at PS! its Planet 51 yaw! its a Kids movie! woo hoo im feeling young! its funny love it! as long as they enjoy it im happy with it.=))
Went a little shopping, food hunting around orchard after that!

__________________________________________________________________________________
Maybe what you've said is true
I say No but actually i cannot face it
its all so new even thou im used to it
Im suppose to be happy but i just cannot feel it

its so pure & Innocent
I wish it was
In the end it never was
Now two difference faces
Living in two unknown places
And i know you can start to feel it too
If it suppose to end this way
Im ready to go
Pack my bag fill with memories
and burn it with hated words
So there will be no U or ME
In the future if we were given a chance to settle the past
There will be just one word from me
NO!
cause i have given 100% of my all in forgetting
and i will never gonna walk backward
and attach every single missing piece of the puzzle.
im stubborn 4ever!

JUST PICTURES! -9 NOVEMBER

2009-11-10T10:02:00.002+08:00

STRONG AT HEART

2009-11-08T01:30:00.000+08:00

Hi Peeps! Long time no see U! hehehe REcently lots of happening stuff happened! Halloween Party, ShoppingLOL!never stop! Emoing! Being 21 not only to Enjoy n Enjoy but also involved lots of thinking! either now or then. I guess it will make me a better person growing up n learnt from mistakes.

Sometime when i think back! what makes me so BUSY! hmm i guess i dont want to be alone. i would do anything to see these smile on my face even when my heart is bleeding in pain! Its not easy to be me. I guess after all this years i been keeping myself strong as a person! its kinda shakie but im learning to take it pure and not complicated. Im all by myself!

Im scared to make another mistake in my life cause i might lost everything. im not trying to hide or turn anyone down just that i dont know how to start! it may be as simple as 1 2 3 but for me to begin (everything just came rush to my head). I dont like 50 50 kinda feeling. as for me i will go on when im 100% ready.

HALLOWEEN MOOD!

2009-10-27T23:19:00.000+08:00

Okay Update Time Okay! A very sleepy Week! Zzzz! but not FRIDAY! so excited for HAlloween party held in School! HANGING OUT! with old friends. YAHOO!! My Mum throw my old Wigz!! arh! thursday goin down to Toy R' US to get one long black WIG! Lucky for me Friday no Sch! so Goin School early for MAKE-UP! & DRESSING UP!

RUDY was here

2009-10-23T19:00:00.005+08:00

Rudy is BACK!! Finally After More than a Month MIA! i finally Update this Blog! I MISS BLOGING so MUCH! BEen very Busy With Activities & School! Woah! For those who wanna see my Hari Raya photos which i said gonna load it here sorrie its to MANY! U can view through my FB! but Add me first yaw!

Recently im so obsess with RIhanna NEw Single "RUssian Roulette" that i made a Cover LOL! well just for FUN! using my inner high voice to sing it! but i really enjoy during the process its like very haunting.

SELAMAT HARI RAYA!

2009-09-19T17:00:00.005+08:00

After 31 days of Fasting during the month of holyness. Tomorrow is the Day where all Muslim celebration the day of VICTORY! And I would like to take this chance to Ask for Forgiveness for all my wrong. all the JOKEs that may hurts your feeling.Okie!=)

Okay tomorrow willl be crying session hhehehe!! FOod Yummy Food!!, Treats!

Lots of Hari Raya PHOTOS will be Post in aite. BUt 4 NOW Take CAre!!!

KANYE WEST STUPID!! BLack DICK!

2009-09-14T15:39:00.003+08:00

Okay yesterday was VMA(Video Music Award) 2009 live. so i watch it live on net via MTV channel. I tell u , it was awesome i lioke it very much. all the perfomances were amazing LADY GAGA perform "Paparazzi" , BEYONCE "Single Ladies", A tribute to MICHAEL JACKSON by his Sister JANET JACKSON who perform "Scream" and Best Female Artist TAYLOR SWIFT. OMG talking about Taylor; I pity her so so bad!!! Thanks to STupid Mother Fucker Kanye West for ruin her moment. She won Best Female Artist, She look gorgeous accepting that award and halfway she's giving her speech suddenly the Mother Fucker Kanye suddenly shown up took her mic and said :"Yo Taylor, im very happy for you, but Beyonce have won most award of all time, Best Video of all time" OMG Fucking black DICK HEad!!! And after that speech, Taylor was so speechless she stood there silently and lastly said thank you. Her face look terribly Upset!!!. If i was receving that award and Kanye came up and destroy my moment i would punch his face n cat fight LOL!! After Beyoncé won Video of the Year, she allowed Swift to come on stage and complete her speech.Oh cool down Rudy!! chill. And also My Idol BRITNEY SPEARS won BEst Pop Video Again! so happy for her.

Below are the Winner LIST! n Video of Kanye Disrespectful behaviour!

Video of the year - Beyonce Knowles (Single ladies)

Best Male Video - T.I (Live your life)

Best Female Video - Taylor Swift (You belong to me)

Best New Artist - Lady Gaga (Poker Face)

Best Pop Video - Britney Spears (Womanizer)

Best Hip Hop Video - Eminem (We made you)

Breakthrough Video - Matt & Kim (Lessons Learned)

Best Direction in Video - Green Day (21 Guns)

Best Choreography in a Video - Beyonce Knowles (Single Ladies)

Best Special Effects in a Video - Lady Gaga (Paparazzi)

Best Art Direction in a Video - Lady Gaga (Paparazzi)

Best Editing in a Video - Beyonce Knowles ( Single ladies)

ShOpPinG Spree

2009-09-12T11:30:00.000+08:00

Okay Im so SleepY today VEry!!! Slept for 2 hrs yesterday then morning went to PolyCLinic cause my sick haven recover yet!! Waited for 2 1/2 hours for damn XRAY!! OMG i was like in a prison, lucky my dad was there to accompany me. SAVED! From the result im SAVED!! no injuries or serious sickness, just Stubborn flame & cute Cough! haha. Reach Home 12.15 and Quickly ask my brother to get ready cause i promise him i will take him go shopping today!!! For 3 hours in Town, only focus on his clothes clothes and clothes, had no time to shop for myself. Only bought this jean, not jean but a pant; grey color which cost $99/-. Must grab! Went to Gap, Nike Store to shop for lil' brother. And at last hes done with his shopping. But not me!!! I want to buy that BeetleBug Scandal which cost $76/-, but i got bajet to spend. Cannot Waste money already must learn how to save save and save. Hmm i heard my brother want to "blanja" me a shirt from TopMan! hahaha loving it.

I was in the train listening to my Mp4,suddenly Aqua Barbie Girl Song came up. lol i wonder who put that song and it remind me of me doing a Gymnastic perfomance during Primary 6 Sport Day! lol memories. i was so flexible those day! haha

PS: The one that i always blame on, Is the one who care about me most

TGIF

2009-09-11T20:38:00.001+08:00

Okay Rudy's back! Its Friday and next Sunday is Hari Raya! Cant believe Time is running so quickly.
Tomorrow GOin out with my Lil' Brother to Town to shop for his clothes and my clothes. He's Primary 6. lol
He want to wear somethin differ, he don't want to wear all the kids stuff anymore. lol kids getting fashionable these days. So tomorrow gonna transform him into someone new. haha. After that meeting mum and maid for Iftar.

Okay New Video for some Fun TIme;

Latest News

2009-09-06T10:42:00.001+08:00

Soon there will be TWO Blog From Me, One will be my Official blogspot http://Rudy-sudyono.blogspot.com & the other one will be http://RudySpeak.blogspot.com. There's two differ blog here, The Official blog would be all about me and my life. Whereas the second one would be hottest Gossip, Beauty Tips, Interview and more dazzling sensation. Also look out for my Dance Crew Blogspot http://rdnrdn.blogspot.com.

MEan while Take Care.

HEAR MY HEART SAY

2009-09-05T23:15:00.000+08:00

I♥ watchin' love stories
I would smile & Laugh to myself
Felt so happy Like it used to be
Bring back memories
Bring back Joy & not forgetten
the SMILE!
Okay Enuf of Love Story!
Hopefully it would be a better one NEXT TIME!

For you who is reading these now.
And you think ur the one
I bet you are not the one.
Cause I felt it before
And I know this is Just another
Love Game

Maybe try to convince me
and Prove it wrong.
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Okay this year Raya, Home Theme: Purple
Family outfit: Grey
Kuih Raya: Will mostly be buying, Pity Mum she's feeling Sick. I will take care of her til she's healthy back.
But what imporant is i must bake my 2 specialities: Hear shey Marble Cake & CHocolate Cookies
Its Sunday and its Gonna be FAMILY DAY FOR SURE.

TIl now im off!

WEDNESDAY

2009-09-02T23:50:00.000+08:00

Today is Wednesday!! Family went out early to do some house hold shopping, bought new sofa.and hari raya stuff. Not too sure, cause i didnt follow them. i went out to do my own shopping survey again, these time went to Bugis cause much nearer , family gonna breat fast at Raffle Hospital Banquet. Love the Banquet there!!

Oh damn happy, i try on my white bermudas which i didnt use it for long time already. and by surprise i could wear and zip it. lol i am so over joy. omg i guess the SICKNESS and FASTING really help me lose weight. lol.

ps: i dont need you already.

BAck to the starT

2009-08-31T23:55:00.001+08:00

I can see im Losing weight, and i feel much lighter now. Been eating little, just 2 spoon of rice. i will do anything for beauty and health. i want to go back to my ideal 65kg weight. and i got two weeks til shopping for new clothes LOL. Im so loving it a brand new start for everything.

I wanna take things patience, i just dont like to rush, and i dont hope everything is 100% because we human are not made of perfection, we do have our flaws.

I pray to God for health, happiness, and thanks for making me stronger. Only he understand and knows me.

WINDOW EYEING

2009-08-30T23:30:00.001+08:00

SO after 3 days of Fever, COugh, and sore throat!! i finally make an effort to visit the doctor today lol. 23 bucks to cure, very Worth it!!! im feeling much better now! Thanks to Dr Lim! -))

But soon after i reach home from the clinic, i rush to my room and get ready to change, style up my hair put on my clothes and off i go to Town. lol Meet Shawn accompany him for a lil shopping and also i did some window shopping too hahah not buying but just looking around. Went to The Heeren my Fav spot to hangout when im in town. Taka; went to Zara. im eyeing on one pant.Not jean but a casual pant. Topman is suck all the same i want to see something new. Also eyeing for Lacoste shoe OMG love it $139. i want i want Must Get it! i dont care. Beetlebug scandal i must buy for Hari Raya!!.And also Fred Perry Polo Tshirt SO i lioke!!!

AFter that i went to Geylang Bazaar and bought 10 pieces of prawn vadai. Yum Yum my fav food to buy during fasting month. Then im off!! haha

Nephew said: Can i kiss U, U look so Nice! heheh awwww so sweet of him.

LOVE IS HIDDEN

2009-08-28T23:35:00.000+08:00

Hmmm Its FRIDAY! and its been 3 days my mum sick. Been Waking Up early at 4am to Prepare food for Sahur (Break dawn)
Fry the chicken, heat up at the food and at 4.40am wake up my sister to make drink (Hot Milo) haha i dont know how to make. And 7 of all gather together and had our meal. I been writing song lately and this will be my 40th songs written. Just wanna share and its always about heartbreak, love (even though i dont get to feel what real love is)emotion and normally its all about Relationship.

Title:Confuse

Verse 1
Sould i cry
Or Let it dry
Should i wait
Or Let you say
What's on your mind

Bridge
Im confuse you make me blue
all that love we shared
when i first know you

Chorus
I try to hide away from you
But you keep coming back thru
Im confused
But soon you try to ignore me
How am i suppose to show the love
I had for you
Baby im confuse
confuse , confuse , confuse...

.................................ENUF OF EMOING MAKE ME WANNA CRY................................................
Okay tomorrow going shopping with my beloved brother.

PS: I play too much with illusion.

THE LAST GOODBYE

2009-08-25T23:34:00.002+08:00

Hmmm Update time: Today is the last Paper. SO excited & Sad too. Excited foR STRESS FREE! Sad last Goodbye to
W66D my classmate.

After that its still early, 9.30 ended so the 4 Hottest Gossip (Haida, Alia, Fieza and myself) went to Jurong Point Famous Amous to collect Birthday Cake which Haida ordered for her sweetie Pie B DAY! HAPPY B DAY TO ???? lol!! But before the shop open at
12pm we went to Arcade and play "Car Racing". OMG its was fasting day and we behaved like the YPs (Young People) Screaming like MAD people LOL. Had So MUCH Fun! Seriously enjoying it. Soon after collecting took Train, Fieza went home, Alia & Haida headed to Pasir RIs and me myself to Town LOL yea. When to The Heeren to LISTEN songs! Went around Borders and browse thru recipe books. Yummy MAking cookies for HARI RAYA!

Feeling Bored at home! So took out my Song Book & Pen and started to write song. This will be my 39th song i wrote myself. And i wanna share with you all:

SONG TITLE: SET ME FREE

Verse 1

I put all the Blame on you
Didnt think that i was wrong and i was fool
Make me believe
That im the one
You ever need, and im the one in your heart
I got carried away and you just played along
Til' i found out the truth
You had somebody else

Chorus
You are everything to me
But we're not meant to be
Set Me Free
Please Go, theres no way to ease
the pain you'd given me
Let the Time heal
Just Leave & Forget me

PS: A SPECIAL TRIBUTE COMING SOON!

THE MUSIC MAN

2009-08-24T03:09:00.001+08:00

OKay Sharing Time:

I wanna share with you my now Top 10 Fav English & Malay Songs played on my IPOD!

ENGLISH SONGS

1)My Bloody Valentine - Tata Young
2)Watch you Go - Jordan Sparks
3)2nd Time around - Lady Gaga
4)Single - Shawn desman
5)Meet me half way - Black eye peas
6)Press it up - Sean Paul
7)Good Girls like Bad Boys - Jadyn Maria
8)Get away - Day26
9)Suffocate - Tata Young
10)Because - Jessica Mauboy

MALAY SONGS

1)Kapan lagi bilang I Love U - Dewi Sandra
2)Perpisahan - Ashidy Ridwan
3)Entah - Afgan
4)Hati yang kau sakiti - Rossa
5)Sembunyi - Sleeq
6)Bukan cinta biasa - Afgan
7)ketika cinta bertasbih - Melly Goeslow
8)Hanya kau yang mampu - Aizat
9)Kau buat aku - Sleeq
10)Shanty Lussy - Afgan

PS: A SPecial Tribute Coming Soon

THIS BOY ON FIRE

2009-08-15T02:12:00.003+08:00

HERE I AM BACK AGAIN! Been away for quiet sometime. Sorry for those who keep on coming back for the latest news.
Been focusing on Exam. Yes very Tough, very Stress, Very Challanging.
ANd What i hate the most is "Need to Come back to School on Saturday to take Exam" WTH!
And Today is the start of FASTING DAY! NO more Gossips Gossips around! No more bitching around!
Just an angel i shall be.

Words from Rudy's HEart:

Just about to move on, when theres a sign
A Sudden turn, the Past on its return
The Love is pure, i know its true
But too confused, if my heart been fool

Never to rush, Avoid mistakes
Impress my soul
Honesty and truthfully
I will open this heart
not with a single key but
with your delighted
care and sincerity.

Part 2 (Updated 11:30pm)

Just came back from Geylang Bazaar. OMG i cant BREATHE! i need air.

One word YP!!! (Young People) OMG lots of them.

I wonder where they came from. Ewww so disgustinG!!

At the Staircase, OMG and the dressing! pls so EWWWWWWW!!! gross!

The hair, the eye brown and the tatoos, and babies oh god. i need a break!

P.S : A SPECIAL TRIBUTE WILL BE POSTED SOON!!

ESCAPABLE SIGN

2009-08-11T15:01:00.000+08:00

Okay Today went to school but partial. Because OMG the minute enter class, Hong Wei (Facilitator) didnt come , and theres a relief Faci, AN Angmoh.Walau, the First Hour was a torture when he go thru the answer for UT2 (Understanding Test), we are like keep Quiet cause we are not sure or dont know the answer.And he was like pointing laser pen to our faces wanting to get a response but we are too cute to talk. LOL. and he fed-up and ask each and individual of us "U want to discuse or Give answer" hahha die die we said discuse and the second time around he ask a question and we still blur blur.

SO Jian yong, Winnie, joanne, felicia, HAida and myself went off!
Went to causeway Point Banquet and eat. Yummy yummy! After that Haida and me headed off to our destination while the rest watching movie.

LOL! Okay now its 1.15Pm and i am at Esplanade Library.
Got this Girl infront of me keep on spraying her mouth while her boyfriend went to take book. Hahah Okay here she go again. haha might as might go toilet and scrub right. Maybe she ate Sotong or forget to brush her teeth. lol Okay they start kissing now.
FRESH AIR!!! lol
ok i wanna carry on with my revision

HAPPY 44TH SINGAPORE

2009-08-10T00:30:00.002+08:00

FIRST OF ALL HAPPY 44th NATIONAL DAY SINGAPORE

Yesterday Party at Costa Sand chalet hahah!!Okay for the past few days is been a great outing. too much to write here but i know im having a great funout there.

SInce its Singapore Birthday, I want to recap back all the photos that i been posting for all the 57 entires.And Today is Monday AND its Stress Free!!! Im loving it! ENJOYSSSS PEOPLE!

THE BODY & THE FUNERAL

2009-08-04T23:45:00.000+08:00

Okay today went for two rounds around Kovan. I had decided to look after my fitness, i wanna lose 5 kg and back to my 65kg weight. For the pass 3 days been drinking herb tea, which need to be brew for hours. I tell you the taste O M G! so Ewwwww.. Like Pregnant woman drink this drink that. i will do anything for health & beauty. i wanna look Good, feel Good. and i believe i could achieve it.

Okay i look upon this commercial by MCYS on youtube; title The Funeral. directed by the late Yasmin Ahmad from Malaysia. I tell You its so touching, emotional and funny. But i admire her for who he is. Her talent is a special gift from god. She really produce amazing No.1 movies, like sepet (a love story between malay and chinese), others no.1 movies also like , Gubra, Muallaf, and the latest talentime. Her movie really capture my heart, and i have to say it is very meaningful. Shes has won lots of awards with her hard work efforts. and i really salute her. Im gonna miss her.

Below is the commercial for "The Funeral"

WATCH IT!

SIMPLE SHORT STORY

2009-08-03T11:29:00.005+08:00

Sunday was Bored so went out with Alvin. Went to TOWN!, yup yup. First up PastaMania, I ordered Spicy Chicken with Fusilli, and he ate chicken cheese salsicca, also ordered Meat Lover. haha though of eating desert but no no, im on DIET lol. nolah stomach bloated. ANyway Thanx ALVIN for the treat! hehe. wateva hor.

Then Walk around The Heeren, he bought slipper from NUM! went to HMV and out we go to THE ION. haha Okay Im lost, Too Crowded. Luckly he knows the direction of the mall. im saved.

Haha okay soon i craving for Bubble Tea, went all the way to Far East! lol just for Bubble! ! ! Fine a Place to sit & chill. and then went H O M E! haha

PS: I AM ANGRY WITH U!! WE ARE GONE! NOW LEAVE ME.

Part 2 of A New Story

2009-07-31T13:22:00.006+08:00

On Monday 27th Went Home with Alia

Took train to Yishun

and then took bus 39 to Pasir Ris (Because its still early)

The moment reach Pasir Ris (It was raining cats & dogs)

Borrow Alia anUmbrella, Purple color . Cause i bought two. Both matching colors

Accompnay her to Watson and headed home taking train.

My intention is to stop at Eunos cause theres direct bus to my home

But instead i drop down at Kembangan (Dont ask me why, haha thought it was Eunos)

but it wasnt, instead of turning back i headed down and out of the station.

From Kembangan i walk along this path which headed to the bustop. But when i reach the

trafic light, OH DAMN i missed the BUS!From the place i stand i could see Marine Parade.

DOnt Know why i continue walking that path which lead me to the other side.

Walk past Siglap Park, miss those days during secondary school.Very memorable! as i walk futher it lead me to my old school; St Patrick School! Walk by the side of the school, my eyes started to observe at every part of the school. The DNT room, the field, my classroom which on the top floor, the prefect asemble area. Then i realize these teary eyes. Those days are the best moment i ever had. Even though i always get bullied but things changed , we are like brothers, always hang out after school at Parkway Parade. Chill and joke around. Now its been 4 years and when i capture back those memories, it really touches my heart. LOL! haiyo so emotional lol.

just wanna let dis feeling go. Im fine now. cheers

PART 1 of A NEW STORY

2009-07-30T09:28:00.001+08:00

OMG at LAST! i could Update this stupid shit!yea..
OMG i got lot of storiessss to share u know..

OMG ok ok where do i start!

First Thing about SINGAPORE GOT YOUTH TALENT thingy. OMG so cannot make it! all i can say is "i clap for u, u clap for me". i didnt make it cause i was the only contestant who was stripping my clothes off on the stage. in front of hmmm less than 20 ppl which it suppose to be a big event. OKAY SKIP! !

After that i went to my niece 1 year old B'day celebration which was held at

Changi Airport, Recreation Club,

Terminal 2.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NADYA NATELINIE

it was awesome!!! 5 stars * * * * *

WILL BE BACK AS SOON AS POSSIBLE!

2009-07-27T22:52:00.000+08:00

I COULDNT BLOG !!! STUPID ERROR!!!!!!

SINGAPORE GOT YOUTH TALNET

2009-07-24T11:19:00.003+08:00

Okay Tomorrow is the Day

Its showtime, Yes Its

!SINGAPORE GOT YOUTH TALENT! - Yup i will be joining tomorrow, Whats my talent that im gonna showcase: well im gonna sing and dance.

Event Detail:

Venue; Junction 8, TOp of the 8 Level 3

Time; 2.30 start

Performance Reveal:

its a 4 mins Song: a remix of Britney Spears and Justin Timberlake, Toxic & Cry me a River. This is my first time performing two item. and im nervous. haha.

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SO IF U R FREE DO COME AND SUPPORT ME AITE!!

THE BIRTHDAY EDITION

2009-07-19T23:30:00.000+08:00

Its Sunday , 19th July 2009. And Its a Special Day , A VERY SPECIAL DAY ONE. Because. Today is my Lil' MEi Mei 19th Bday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MINDY MIAO XIN!

I know U must be Wondering why You didnt receive any SMS or Bday wishes from me Your Kor Kor! haha Because I want to be the last person sending you a Bday Wish before the day ends. And You will receive it tonight at 11.55pm.

It been Great Having you, You are the best, For Sure U are VEry Concern & Caring. Understanding, Cute and Cheerful person. And hopefully you will be blessed with wondeful moments and all your wishes will come true. I pray for your health and recovery. And we shall hang out again and enjoy the moment together!!! Yea

HOME & STUCK

2009-07-18T18:46:00.013+08:00

Okay Its Saturday and im stuck at home,, want to watch Firework but all Busy. Never Mind!. And im having diereohe. Dont know eat what!. Browsing through youtube looking for movies to watch. and for the past 6 hours i been watching different Japanese movies. OMG im loving it so much. So romantic, so hot, so sexy, so love story. . .Mum & Sister went out for body massage. Leaving me and maid at home, Brother & sister in law went to KL, Daddy working, Lil bro went out. haiz bored okay.

DRAG ME TO LAUGHTER

2009-07-16T15:12:00.004+08:00

OKAY PEOPLE IM HAVING MIGRANE TODAY VERY VERY!! I JUST CRIED!

Okay i wanna share with U this Videos from Singapore Fav Comedian: KUMAR!! i really admire his work as an entertainer. Very Natural and Fun to watch all over again. I was watching this videos on Wednesday morning at 2am. and i was laughing so loud at my living room. LOL. i think my maid heard it and was like "Is HE okay"haha.

U P D A T E - T I M E

2009-07-14T21:30:00.010+08:00

OKaY Updates to share!!

Last SUnday There was Ceremony goin on at my house, A Malay Tradition Ceremony for a New Born Baby called "Cukur Rambut". It started from 12 - 6pm and 400 Guests were invited, from Relatives, Friends and VIP. I Bake 2 large Chocolate Marble Hershey Cakes. And i receive lots of Good Compliment from people. Thank You VEry Much.

Yesterday When Out to Celebrate my Nephew 9th Bday. Had Dinner at Bilal Reatraunt, Sembawang. Ordered so much food. Stomach Bloated. Yummy Delicious. AND
HAPPY BIRTHDAY LUQMAN ADDEEN! - love Uncle.

Today in school, We talk about Wedding, from when are we getting married to decoration, cakes and invitation. LOL Very Wild Imagination. But there's still long way to go.

Below Pictures from the events:

SHOT OF MY LIFE

2009-07-09T19:10:00.012+08:00

Ok first of all i wanna update about my Singapore Got Youth Talent. Its Offically COnfirm that the audition will held on 25th July not 24th. Its Gonna be on Saturday @ Bishan Junction 8.

Next Today's Lesson was Fun. its all about Taking Photos Yaw. Awww So excited!! Each individual need to come up with a topic or story line of pot polio which include 15 pictures. And i came up with "The Obessession of Human & Bags". So i ask my 13 classmates including myself to hold their bags and strike a poke according to the pose they are suppose do by ME! Style & Attitude is the main key here. From lift to Water sink area, Floor, Table & chair were among the places where we shot the scenery. Below are some of the photos which i captured.

RUDYSUDYONO

2009-07-08T17:59:00.011+08:00

Hi Rudy Sudyono, or Rudy Takashi James is back haha new name added. Been a week plus i didnt update due to Busy- ness (haha always) But well wha i've have been doing, Okay Update on SIngapore Got Youth Talent, my Tag number is 001, Yes the First!!! arhhh now im stresss.. Hate to be the First! lol And in the previous Post i said that it will be on 25th July but since im the 1st 100 contestant, my audition date will be on 24th July, Starting Time 2pm. I know most of my friends cant watch me due to work comitment but yea dont worry aite i will record for YOU to watch . Next Week i will reveal more what im gonna perform not just Toxic baby!.

Okay! Been SHopping alot<<> Hoodies, Shoes, CLothes, underwears.. loving it (now im into choker and banglesssss!)

PS: You are so far, Now your Back, and im trying my best not to be part of it.

The Show Starring: Rudy Sudyono

2009-06-26T11:32:00.004+08:00

Ok since i miss the RP Talent show, im not gonna miss the Big event which is "SIngapore Got Youth Talent". Its a Talent show to showcase your talent haha, whether it dancing, singing, beatboxing, musical instrument or etc. Well as for me im gonna sing & Dance to ..........." (secret cant tell) but if u wanna watch me perform and rock that stage do come by on 25th July Saturday. Bishan Junction 8 auditorium.

Its gonna be fire baby! live performances by all the talented people.

Will update more about this ...soon just hear from me.

I LIVE TO DANCE

2009-06-23T23:40:00.000+08:00

OMG just reach home two hours ago from B Boy Dance Practice. N class lasted 4 hours , full of tiredness but it was super duper fun i tell you. So in love with Break dancing now. Ohya the class was conducted by Larry. from Natasha Studio Crew, i guess haha. Wateva but hes Fantastic i tell you. Very Discipline. i LIOKE!!. Tomorrow another class but its Hip Hop class. all about shaking your butt and waist which im so Good at it. hahahaha action. But i think ok confirm tomorow morning my whole body gonna ache like hell. Ok i need a good massager. ANYone out there willing to massage me? hehehe.

WHAT IS LOVE? to me

2009-06-19T21:52:00.003+08:00

hi people im back; do you miss me?. sorrie for not updating been pretty busy this week.

Okay today i wanna express my deepest love feeling, the important of love in my life.

What is love?

As i grew older im thinking what makes me able to stand on both feets and live the everyday life. Well everybody knows that life is full of surprises and beyond imagination. There's always something new you will face each day. But did you know that everything you do will either you do it for yourself or someone. The love in you has always be by your side and the love from people around you are the one that kept you alive.

That is what i feel!

Love plays a big part in my life. I easily attracted to love. what i meant is the love, care and concern which i get from the people i love. Once the Love has been build then came the trust!

Because of trust, the love that has been build for years can be broken if you neglected it.

As for me Once i know a person and able to adapt , i will put hopes and trust. Because im that person who really like to meet and make new friends. Share the love around.

always remember always love yourself first!

"DRAG ME TO MONDAY"

2009-06-15T09:30:00.001+08:00

OMG Its Monday and School just begun. I hate it VERY much okay. Sunday was fun until 9 plus at night. stressing up what to wear to school. Took out all the shoes, pants, jackets arhhhh...and finally finally hhaha i got it.

Will update later okie. back to focusing lesson. . .

CRAZY SATURDAY

2009-06-13T23:30:00.000+08:00

Finally! Can breathe! okay first of all went to Vivo City with Dragon Boat friend. CHill, relax, Listen to Exicted Boom Boom Pow & Shocking news. haha ONLY i know haha! Took Pictures alot, Most only my Pictures, well its RUDY yaw. okay haha. Then After that meet Radiation and HuiFen, Ocassion: A Last dinner with My Mei Mei MINDY before she went for leg operation. hmm gonna miss u darling. Ouch We went to Swensen and ate 1 large Earthquake and 1 Chocolate FOndues. OMG it been quite sometime since i ate that much. Melting in my mouth, rushing down my throat, swollow it down right to my tummy. hahahah. Then soon after dinner went to Esplanade outside theatre, theres performances by this korean band. Wonderboys haha. OMG they dress up so smart like the beetles with nerdy shade, suit. and they play the oldies songs. haha They are sooo CUTE! (okay thats so gay lol) then we went home. .

I had so MUCH FUN! more photos will be uploaded soon!

HOLY FRIDAY

2009-06-12T18:06:00.002+08:00

Its suppose to be Holy Friday But I wake up damn late at 2.30pm after Friday Prayer. Was Shocked. haha!! Recieved a lots of SMS(s). Stuck at home today. Watching "Jangan Tegur" ( BE SILENT) A Malay Horror Story MUST WATCH!! haha just go Youtube. Tomorrow Goin out probably & Hopefully! Watch Movie & Dinner asusual, The Rich & Famous Lifestyle hahah Wateva Rudy.

Thats all for today a short one!!

I AM XXX

2009-06-11T16:00:00.001+08:00

Happy Happy Gooday...
Fresh Air Fresh Mind.

Okay First of all i made it into Hip Hop Audition, after audition and audition and audition for 2 days. Finally it pays off. Go Style Groovaz Crew!. pheww and not forgotten my own crew itself Radiation aka (RDN), We are bangs forever.

Secondly: My Parent went to Umrah for two weeks; Umrah means is a pilgrimage to Mecca performed by Muslims. And only left my siblings. Ouch. We became the maid at home even though we have our own. Cooking is cooked by my sister even though she hates cooking. for me hmmm what did i do. oh yes just do a simple cleaning. Prince MAh!! Misses Mum & Dad so Much! Hope they are fine AMIN

Thirdly: School reopen next monday and im like erhhhhmm school boring!hahah and im gonna spend my 3 days happily, enjoying the smile on my face. RADIATION see you dis Saturday! O M G I MISS U LIKE HELL!!

Pictures from The 2 days Auditions:

SEXY IS BACK

2009-06-10T23:00:00.000+08:00

IM BACK for More!

First of all i would like to say A BIG thank U to those who have SMSs me, Thru MSN or TagBox for the care & concern you all have given me . I know my previous blog entry was like "O M G r u serious Thats Rudy" Cannot Be!!! he's such a 24 7 Crazy Wild Innocent and dont forget the Virgin person"

Well people that is LIFE. Love it or Love it Moore! I think im acting dumb, too emotional. get carried away by emotion too far til i dont know who i am anymore. But i realize it now. Aite okay I got lots to share with you Guys. N I miss RDN so much.. see U guys dis Saturday hor. MUCH MUCH love! awww

Be back guys daily for hot storiesss

THE SAD CLOWN

2009-06-04T01:03:00.004+08:00

As im writing this, im holding my tears real hard. I hate for being Me, Myself and I. I feel so lifeless. I want to GEt out from this world! Do i have the money face look! Nobody knows me. Im all alone here in this world. I can't accept when people tell me im just good for nothing, only think for myself. I feel so heartbroken. im 21, still schooling, not working. i feel so much presure. Im just useless, really useless. I don't know who am i doing all this for? myself or others. im confused. I been Straggling all my life, living with hope & fear. im so scared. has anyone ask me why am i so happy, crazy, sad or quiet? For all this while all the problem i had, i been keeping it inside my heart. There's no point telling others. what will i get another scolding? discouragement?. there's a point of time i couldnt take it anymore. i cried out loud. for hours til my eyes swollen. Because i want it to go away. No one knows how pain it was to feel the sorrow. Is Dance a SIN? Can i choose what i wanna do in life? Do they care?.

"All Eye On Me In the Center OF The Ring JusT Like A Circus" -- Do U know what does that sentence mean? Fame, Glamour, SpotLight!? NO NOT FOR ME!It mean: people are looking at me like some stupid clown, wasting my time, making a fool of myself.Booing ME, Say Nasty things. Where i standing there, doing nothing because i dont know who i am! where am i!

That's why I prefer to be alone, the smile & laughter on my face. Do u think im perfectly fine? I just don't want people to worry about me! BEcause im not worth it. (Full Stop)

5 YEARS in DARK CIRCUS

2009-06-03T02:04:00.003+08:00

5 years ago was the up & down moments for me.

Its all started with an unexpected love story which both parties did not realize.

My first so called First Love. It was pure & innocent. Simple & lovely. The happiest moment that point of time in my life. Each day was like heaven.. wanting more & more. So madly in love. Smilling to the four walls. Enjoying replying SMSs. but one think we never talk on the phone. (weird). Yes its true. The time we spend together was never enough but after each meeting was so memorable. This is not a fairytale.

Soon after, the time we spend together became lesser & lesser. Reason i was not focusing & giving attention to love. and it was on a day we met but it turn out to be the last day. Seriously i wasn't thinking anything, my mind when blank. freeze frozen dead. But soon i realize my life is missing, miss those SMS, waiting patiently, trying to start back all over again. Lost contact! for years. When searching on internet to track back information, any details i could possibly get. Crying was never the end! Talking to the moon. Skip about the HEartPain!! and Hoping was always my first soul. Took me a long time until i give up searching. Been fighting wit dis heart for years, to forget to delete and erase. N its a good success just for a while ONLY. but i don't know suddenly a flash back rush through my mind and make me numb! Now after 5 years i manage to find back thanx to ".............................."! we all still back in contact as a friend. No more! cause after 5 years departing, there's changes that we possibly cant change back. Because human grow and always wanting the best for themselve. so do I!

There's a reason why i dont want to accept another love. because i dont want to involve my past story and make a mess when im attached, accepting someone heart.

This story is to let off what has been keeping in my mind, heart and soul for all this while and thanx to "...................." for letting me write this down and i appreciate it very much.

But i guess.. soon i want to fall in love again!

Name r kept confidential! by request!

MOO DY

2009-05-28T15:31:00.002+08:00

Okay Today im stuck at home, Self Declare Holiday! ANd i hate the weather here its dark not so sunny bright. ANd usually dis type of weather will change my mood. and even more im listening to Tatu's song "30 Minutes". SO EMO and my imagination run wild, thinking about the past..haiz. LIFE!

Enough Crying, too tired.

FREAKY CLASSMATE

2009-05-26T14:16:00.005+08:00

Hahah okay i love my class W66D; we are VERY crazy, loose mind and HArdcore people. Every Each of US 100% got these "disease". Dis Disease is VERY dangerous, once you get no medicine to cure. WOrse than Aids and HIV. United people LOL.

We love JOKEs, not just normal joke but Extreme lamest & Out Of COntrol one. We love moaning in class. No One can stop us even the facilitators CANNOT DO ANYTHING! we r the ITE(s).

But all that LAME & WILD moments, we r Clever Student.

U GOT MISS ME?

2009-05-25T10:50:00.003+08:00

okay Im so Sorrie for not updating blog for few days.. Awww there's lots i gotta share with you all. really a MUST! okay first about my RP talent!! It was a scrap out. last Friday i went to the audition room, waited and waited til i notice WHY there's noone at the room. then i on my laptop and check my school email. F U C K, the audition was last friday on the 15th. my heart was like in pain and they sent me another email saying " we r aware that you couldn't make it for the audition on friday but there will be a final audition on monday and pls bring your form" oh shit I MISSED two audiiton DATE!! Bloodly stupid me! so YAYA thought on friday 22nd! Haiz there goes my dream! okay since there's no audiiton for me, i will record down a live performance of me singing and dancing to Toxic. okay.!!

Second: hmmm ... I love baby!

Thirdly: DIs week will be the last week of school then 2 weeks HOLIDAY! awww.... so can't wait! there's lots of plan running on my mind! There's Hip Hop Camp, and others i cannot say here. or i dye.

REHERSAL: MIC 1 2 3 STEP 4 5 6

2009-05-20T17:26:00.002+08:00

Basically Today just stay at home and doing rehersal for my Friday Audition. Its HArd to Sing and Dance at the same time! VERY VERY HARD! scared!! out of pitch. I need to put my soul and brain together. And the Song Toxic really VERY challenging! The Choreography is straight forward but there's alot of turning that eventually i change it to my own move.

Okay i love BABY! awww.

RUDY's SIGNATURE POSE

2009-05-19T14:41:00.007+08:00

Class very FUCKed UP! i mean the Faci. WALAU! "23&()+*(178%%%%(#U()"

oKAY WHEREAS todays lesson is Fun haha! Its was during second break when Haida, ALia and myself were eating inside the empty class, next to our class. SUDDENLY, i heard Girls shouting my name "Rudy!, RUdy!, Rudy! COme out take Picture" i was like erhhmmm okay! haha.. Bunch of my girl classmates was like posing with their body curving, twisting and bending. Ouch so Funny and Cute! Wonder what they are posing as??? LOL they were imitating on how i usually pose for the camera, using the body, hand gesture, head, eye contact! and wild imgagination. ANd they name it Rudy's Pose! Ouch so honoured!

SECRET IS TOXIC

2009-05-18T14:07:00.005+08:00

okay This Friday i will be Going for the RP Talent 2009 Audition in School. Wow Im VERY nervous rite now. Let me reveal the secret performance for the audition. Im Goin Sing Toxic by Britney Spears, duh ofcus its gonna be a male version. Plus I will be dancing and singing at the same time. I wanna rock that stage. Prop will be using Blindfold for part of the song. Okay basically if u wanna know how exactly the performance will be .Here's a link:

"http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=a-XCL_4tu-Q&feature=related"

so how it is hot or not, girlish or freaky. But what matter is the talent to perform. and be difference . I wanna showcase something that is enjoyable, spectacular, dynamic and also CRAZY!! its my stage so welcome to the show. Pray for me, that i'll make it to the audition round aite. Thanx

I SMELL NEW BABY

2009-05-17T12:10:00.004+08:00

Im so Excited to see my new born niece! she's so cute from the picture my brother snap using his HP. She's got small chinese eyes and fair skin. ouch just like me when i was born. i look like ang moh u know very redish! Even my auntie say to my mum "Is That your child". Hello duh Ofcus lah! . . . .

i update later again hor after the visit.

Pictures

HAPPY

2009-05-16T09:00:00.002+08:00

Ouch! Tomorrow Sunday (17th MAy) would be 2weeks since i launched my bloG! and Unexpectedly its Over 800 people viewed my blog. I wonder who r those people! Hmmm.. My Classmate told me she read my blog everyday. Hmm i wonder what attract those viewers about my bloG. Is it about the difference photos i post everyday or it is about the stories that i shared each day.

But what matter is im so HAPPY and want to Thank U; 2 Each and Every one of U of have viewed my humble blog! DO Visit Everyday, because there's always something new to share. From Heart to HEart.

Today im Out to "Somewhere"! Practicin my solo performance! wit RDN. but after that not sure but there's always last min plan or pop out plan i have to say. Maybe watching Movie, See how lorh!

Im Out!: love. From Rudy Sudyono

Update later at Night!

Updated again 11:45PM

Okay just came back from DOwnTown East, WatchinG Movie with AfiQ,"The Uninvited" Okay i loved the story line very suspendsss and so the tragic. But first went to Fish & Co to eat. Bought ourselves two set meal each! BLOODY HUNGRY but not really too full,... packed fish & chips for movie Munch Munch treat. AFIQ was so scared of the suspends part, especially during all the scene when the sound effect begin to "GEt loud" Hahaha. Caught ya! Cover his Face with cap.

Met Aira, Huifen, Anais and Elsa at Down Town East! Bitching around i guess at the beach!

PINKDOT

2009-05-15T09:00:00.002+08:00

Happy Friday people! Having a Great Day for sure ! !

Okay Im Gonna Share Wit U all what's Goin On Tomorrow SATURDAY!

There's a Campaign Goin On! wonder what campaign??? Well its a campaign for those who support the freedom of LGBT Singaporean. LGBT stands for (Lesbian, Gay, Bi-sexual and Tran-sexual) Well its not only for these people to support each other but people like me, U and all the Straight Open -minded People around Singapore.

Venue: The field at Hong Lim ParK

Time: 4:30PM

What to wear: Pink (hat, shade, sunglassess, caps and accessories recommended)

What to expect?: Pink Umbrella will be provided with a donation, photo taking!

Let me share with You about these people:

Well i got lots of Gay-bi-Les Friends around Singapore, and i have to say they are Unique creatures. Meaning they are friendly and Fun people to be with! Yes im not Lying U can ask those who think the same way as i am. They are Human like us too, if we don't support them who else?.. Right! So don't think "rubbish about them" because they can be better than a normal human.

HATING ON THURSDAY.. MAYBE NOT

2009-05-14T09:00:00.008+08:00

I hate Thursday! ! Because of the Module lesson ! No Time to Eat! No Cam WHorinG in Class! JusT Work Work & Work like SOcial Escort! (random) lol. haiZ! Other than That i donno what to write.. hmmm probably later i will updated again (FOR SURE)!

aite come again later!

Updated Again(6:30 PM)

Okay im back ..Today's lesson is AWESOME! Unexpected! My Faci as usual change attitutde today ."Hmmm i think, i don't know why lah"haha! Im so happy with my performance today and make sure i got A and also my dearest Team. ok hor!

Hmmm..probably tonight or tomorrow i will receive a GOOD news! Yahoo my Sister gonna deliver her first daughter! Yippie and total i already have 2 nephews and 2 nieces and im already becoming UNCLE!.. Hmmm I love kids! especially baby Girl! they are cute. WHy i say so take a look at my niece!

During free time i would straighten her hair with hair straightener, Put on her best dresses and took her photos, change clothes, redohair and take photo again. im training her to become a MODEL haha!

ohya and she's only 2years plus! She's VERY vain okay! she choose her own clothes when going out! and she's only wear her night princess gown to bed! no short allowed hor. I guess i spoil her LOL! here's a photo of her and take a look what i did to her hair! VERY VOGUE AND FIERCE>>>

13th MAY 2009

2009-05-13T14:00:00.001+08:00

Ouch Today Wake LAte! Holiday hehe.. i loike. Okay YEsterday after school was damn Tired! Reach home ate 2 slice of pizza and 3 chicken drumsticks from PizzaHut! Then i took my song writing book out and wrote a new song "My heart". Ouch its been long tyme since i last wrtting! FYI i have already written 35 songs. Here are some of songs:

Body breathe: Untouchable: U Got me wronged: Treated me: Is he the reason: More than he could give: I'm Sorry: Should have make u stay: Here with me: Fly like a bird: Age ain't matter but number: Never again: Take a bow: Mr & Mrs: Cry: Touch & Go: 12 43 am: We build relationship not enemy: Love me or love me more: SEXY: and etc.

(new song) My heart [lyric]

Verse 1

Even though far apart

But your name never i stop calling

Enough to keep me from the teary eyes await me ahead

Not even stars above and flashing lights could cheer me up

Only the touch of your hand could make me feel you again

Bridge

Fighting deep inside the feeling hurts my sorrow

If only you come back to fix the missing hole

Chorus

Im so happy when you arrive

You always light up my heart

Don't ever you leave me

I cannot face it

with the pain right deep inside

*Sorry for the grammar mistake (need to brush up the line again)

Lastly: i made to it HIp HOp Audition! Yahoo!!

and lastly! Thanx to Nafisah she remind me; i wrote a song for my friend CINDY called "Handcuff me". its all completed the beat, rhymes plus the lyrics just waiitng to be played on air HAHA! its a BOOM music!

TUESDAY FREAKSHOW

2009-05-12T12:01:00.001+08:00

okay! TUesday! ! ! My class classmate vote me for RP Talents 2009! okay lol every anxious ! i will need to sing and dance! lol Very Very Scary Merry Strawberry.. I don't know what to sing its been long time since i involve in singing industry haha! I like Justin timberlake, i like shayne wards, i like Craig David..arh!! what song??? i got no time! the person would call me anytime dis week!!

Shit lah! and one more thing the Hip Hop Audition not yet published lah! walau! 90 of them hd been selected but only 50 plus will be choosen! i wander if im among the 90 people!!hehe

Wed is Holiday! I mean Evry Wed is Holiday! so i wanna sleep! Sick and tired of waking up early and travel all the way to Woodland! haiz if only got people fetch me to sch! that would be great!

I miss DancinG! i wanna remove & stripped (random)!always!

MY ALL

2009-05-11T09:30:00.000+08:00

Okay today i wanna talk about my personal favourite!: My Favourite Song all time!

Artist: Mariah Carey

Song: My all

Why am i so crazy, addicted, out of control about dis song: Well i guess any song would captured your heart if ONLY it leave an impact in your life! I Guess My all is a very beautiful song, from the lyrics, melody and her beautiful strong voice! and you can feel it with your ONLY heart.

For me: The moment i heard My all.. i feel kinda (relax, sentimental, and emotion,)

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Verse 1

I am thinking of you

In my sleepless solitude tonight

If it's wrong to love you

Then my heart just won't let me be right

'Cause I've drowned in you

And I won't pull through

Without you by my side

............................................................................................

Have you ever wonder, how does it feels like to love someone that you trust and put on hope.

To see the smile on your face everyday and keep on thinking of that someone

but when you know that its all over and leave you aside

without a feel of goodbye but a heart full of broken parts

And it took 5 years to forget that someone! ! !

and now the heart is free, would you ever want to fall in love again

Hoping & cross your fingers that it will never repeat twice!

HAPPY MOTHERS DAY

2009-05-10T00:13:00.003+08:00

Its SUnday meaning Happy Mother's Day to my lovely mom Samaniah Mahmud!

A letter for U:

You filled my days with rainbow lights,Fairytales and sweet dream nights,A kiss to wipe away my tears,Gingerbread to ease my fears. You gave the gift of life to meAnd then in love, you set me free.I thank you for your tender care,For deep warm hugs and being there. I hope that when you think of meA part of youYou'll always see.

I LOVE U MOM!

!SATURDAY SLUTTY OUTING!

2009-05-09T22:42:00.008+08:00

OKAY! today went out with the Girlz! Yea Its been quite a while since our last meeting! Ohya we watch "THE RAMEN GIRL" Funny!! i like u noe!

After that had our meal: When to fountain and took photos, make a movie. But through out the days we like "SPOTTING THE NOD". Haha! poor sholeha she trying her best to find and spot the nod! (Wander what is Spot the Nod) lol ask me!!

ENTER THE RING OF FIRE

2009-05-08T09:12:00.000+08:00

Its FridaY! I love it so Much! Speechless! I dont know why but i like it! haha siow hehe

Haiz! yesterday i couldnt sleep. i dont know why what i know is that i was smilling and smilling! haha til i force myself to sleep! Okay can someone tell what is that sign mean?? Hmmm..

Whateva lah hor!

I been getting lots of comments about myself!! from my fellow friends!

One of the bonus question: "Rudy what happen to you!, You are so differ now" "Im so worried about you"

Okay People! let me tell you lah hor! okay i admit im a total differ person now ,compare to 3 years ago! i guess now im 21! and i think i need to expose myself, what i mean is gain experiences! I wanna do what i wanna do! i don't care what others think and say! This is me now! i will stand up for my rights! Life is just like in a circus!

So if i wanna stripped, pose naked! that's my willingness! haha

and ofcus i know there's limit to everything!

CENTER OF ATTRACTION

2009-05-07T10:00:00.002+08:00

Okay Yesterday went for Hip Hop Audition! held in School! OMG we are given 8 8 routine, 4- 8 for B BOY move and 3 -8 for Hip Hop Move! OMG i love it lah! EVryone in the Room were so "Kan CHong Spider"(Correct??anyhow spell only) Oh ya before that! i met this guy name "AMIN" for the first time. A new friend of mine. haha he also used to be in a dance group before! and he just came to RP. a year 1 student!. We practice like hell lah! sweating like PIG! but i always maintain my looks! i mean my hair haha! Given an 1hr to pratice and at 7:15PM the audition start... FREAKING HELL! so nervous! my number is M30!!

At 8PM is our turn we dance in a group of 8!

We need to dance 3 time and the third one continue with our own Freestyle!!

There's 3 routines, the first and second one is okay but when it come to the third one everything wen smoothly until the rest look at me because they forgot their steps n try to follow me . Guess what i was too nervous that i forgot my steps too. arHHHH! shiT

haha (wanna know what i did) I shocked dis one of the hip hop members.

i did wave, shaking abit of locking and i grind on the floor! and krump none stop! haha Crazy sia!

BEHIND THE CIRCUS CURTAIN

2009-05-06T12:00:00.000+08:00

arh! Terrible day yesterday! Im so emotional right now, so sad that i cried yesterday like i lost my another life! Thinking about it make me wanna cry even more! i could go crazy anytime! I HATE "378de#@%28". I love my Mummy so Much!! I wander what would i do without her!

okay who i been cursing, and swearing??! my big Brother!! Because of soccer socks he "spitting fire" in the house. Shouted at mom! arh! so BLOODY ANGRY! fcuk!.. then i said back;"can you keep quiet!!?" and he was like shouting at me! wanting to beat me! WTF! and mum was defending me! He's attitude is getting worse! NEVER CHANGED! from last time. haiz ! Married somemore! in less than 2 week gonna be a father!. haiz!

I was too sad! when he shouted at mom! my heart PAIN!! OMG! stabbed my heart!arghhh.

Okay don't wanna talk about it! haiz need to go back to school later for Hip Hop audition! im nervous! haha!...

FOR THE RECORD: LACE & LEATHER

2009-05-05T10:21:00.001+08:00

I GUess! Im done TalkinG about my everyday Life! What i do in school and what i eat! i wanna Go Straight! I wanna STRIPPED down! to the real me! reflect my personality as much as possible, desiring nothing superficial, no hype, no gloss just me Stripped!

About me: For all who been asking! wondering! Whispering!

Two side of me! Lace & Leather

Lace: The soft side of me

Okay since i was born i'm naturally soft, not that soft soft so lady girly soft. Just there's feminine side of me! I don't play soccer or any balls game! i love taking care of my apperance, looking sloopy is not in my dictionary! NO NO! i took more time to get ready than a girl! 1hr and half everyday to school! Wait what i did to myself! i straighten my hair, spray my hair, make sure my clothes is clean, NO! crumple! and is fully IRON ( haha okay that's my maid job on ironing my clothes). Sometime im stress too!!!VERY! I think keeping my self organized is GOOD! as i grew older, i wanna maintain my standard the way i look and BE a successful career man.

Leather: The Firm side of me

Well for those who don't know me! Im a Strict and firm person too hor! Well don't mess with me! im a good Fighter! U think this is Funny or some kind of Joke! Well ITS NOT!! i have my own dignity! Those who wanna say NASTY BITCHY SLUTTY things about me! Straight to my Face!

Im good at discipline people! Im a Good Leader! (im not talking BIG) just being true and honest!

So having LAce & Leather is Good! I can feel the emotion of a woman and also be the man that i am! Im good at touching hearts! Because heart are not meant to be hurt! It need to be cared and loved!

PS: LOve one Not two, find one and be true, if you find one that truly love you, stick to that like glue, love long stay longer, cherish more will last forever

PMS MONDAY

2009-05-04T11:10:00.005+08:00

Okay! Its MondaY! so its PMS day for me! Today's lesson about Data System: SQL Query Browser. Walau! Blur! Blur like sexy sotong haha! NO time for Breakfast and lunch only ate 1 peanut butter waffle! well i need to lose 5kg. i need my 65kg weight back!!

Update LAter aite! Gonna CONCENTRATE!! i need a good Grade Today!!

Part 2 (updated at 3:02 PM)

OMG! Presentation is SUCK cock!!! i I screwed!! NeverMind at least a B for today! this is what i did during Presentation hours.. CAM WHORING!! F.U.N!

THE SPOTLIGHT SUNDAY

2009-05-03T10:30:00.003+08:00

Good Moaning! i mean morning!!

Waking up early today because my twin neices's wedding today!hah Yes Twins! Cool Ryte! Still planning what to wear! Pink, baby blue or Grey long sleeve? Okay i m stresss! no wander i got MIGRANE for 1 week straight arhhh... damn!

I need to learnt how to relax myself! i need a break, chill out. Hmmm. CAN U HELP ME?

Tomorrow Monday.: Need to Bring Stupid Thermometer!! 2 School!Stupid FLU I hate U! (Wah it rhymes) Okay L.A.M.E! haha Okay that's for now!

Part 2 (Updated on 9:38 PM)

OUch!! SO Tired! Wedding Wedding Wedding! It was super Grand! (Full Stop)

Ohya! Just Now after the ceremony, went home.. so on the way home ask sister to drop me at KOVAN MALL! I need to Buy Thermometer!! for Tomorrow! Arhhh!! From Watson, to Pharmacy then Cold Storage! FCUK all no Stock!! Hello how about me! I also need one! Still not happy walk all the way home and went to Watson at my house area! STill NO STOCK! I was sweating like after SEX! (random: still a virgin hor) SO ANGRY!.went back home! Start Searching! AND FINALLY I FOUND ONE INSIDE MY BROTHER's OLD PENCIL BOX!

so happy! now im eating one of dis purple icing cup cake that mummy took home! Ouch yummy baby!! dripping down my lips..melting! haha so wrong lah!

ok see ya soon! pretty soon ! i need my Virgin sleep! More Hot stories coming up dis week!!

CIRCUS OPENING: THE FIRST SHOW

2009-05-02T23:50:00.000+08:00

Finally after months and months of delay!! My First dream Blog is on Air! haha I know i'm a bit, erhmm damn too late for this blog thingy! Dis Blog is for those people who requested me to start blogging! BEgging me! okay!hehe

I love Circus so Much that i use it as my Theme Blog!

SO R U READY TO CRACK SOME WHIPPED?

More HOT stories coming Up!! About me , About you, and About us!

STAY TUNE!! Btw pls leave your comment

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